…finding sheila

The other day, I bought a new hat.  I’ve been wanting one of these for a long time but didn’t want to spend the money.  Money is tight, you know.  Turns out, it was on sale!  (So I bought two)  Normally I don’t indulge myself with ‘things’ very often.  Mostly any extra money goes towards the kids or food.  But I was feeling like I just ‘needed’ that hat.

And so it was.  I put that hat on my head and for some odd reason I felt like a different person.  I felt good.  Was it the feeling of having something new?  Was it the fact that this hat requires changing from sweats to jeans?  I’m not sure, but I can tell you without a doubt this wonderful little piece of fabric atop my head renewed a feeling I haven’t had in some time.  Confidence.  I walked with purpose.

So with my new found feeling of goodness I vow today that the positivity that I used to sport is going to make an appearance again.  It was tucked away somewhere amidst the blahzay thoughts of what this recession has brought.  The getting by and worries about business and keeping afloat.  I’m tired of being tired.  Of negativity.  Of hearing complaining.  Both from my self and others.  From this day forward I will heed the advice of what I’ve always told others.  No more sweating the small stuff…and, everything is really small stuff in comparison to the big picture.

My life is now one of renewed hope.  A new story.  That old book has seen it’s last chapter.  The sequel is much brighter.  My husband’s business, our bread and butter (window cleaning) has been in operation since 96 and every year it grew except for the last two years.  But next year?  OMG, talk about flourishing?  So many new customers!  And the previous customers hit hard by the recession?  Oh…they are all coming back to us because are flourishing in 2010!   When that happened, we hired back everyone we had to lay off and we’re cleaning windows like there’s no tomorrow!

Our other businesses are now doing so wonderful that we’re  able to pay off our debt with that extra income and even take a long deserved vacation where even more creative ideas will fill the spaces of our minds.

My daughters stomach issues have vanished for good.  We’re never going to know what caused them but that’s alright because they are never going to come back.

That cloudy feeling I used to get when listening to negative people/thoughts draining every ounce of energy from me?  Gone!  I’m filled with sunshine and warmth and a positive flow that is beyond belief.    So much more time and space is opened up once I ban that negative energy!   And when I stop listening to it, those around me will feel that bounce and work toward opening them selves up to forgiveness and non-judgment and in turn they too will be able to welcome in more positive energy for themselves.   It’s  such a contagiously wonderful thing of beauty!

Oh yeah…I am SO rockin’ this hat!

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